Her eyes seemed to narrow, memorizing the name fast. She looked at him, "Well since we've cleared up that you didn't kill him. I'm sorry, but, I'm not sorry for yelling at you." She sighed, "I know he hurt you, and I know he tore you. But, when you were in here speaking things like he was a horrible guy..He was actually fighting himself, feeling the regret of what he did. He started to have a multiple disorder. And he was seeing a therapist, who gave him medicine and shots for it." Artemis saw Kitty's eyes widened, "He loved you, and he did regret what he did..I just want you to remember that, since you judged him so poorly..And made him feel useless.."
Artemis started to turn away, walking off before she stopped..
"The protectors should have just killed me already... I am useless. I can't even control myself anymore..." Artemis said, mocking the tone in Lance's voice when he had said that.
She turned to look at Kitty, "That is what he said. The day before he got killed..Just thought you would know that." She said, walking off. Though when she left, her hands went into her pockets. Stopping when she felt the note, "Oh..Wait a minute." Artemis turned around, giving Kitty the note, "I'm sure he wanted you to see this..It is addressed to you.." She said before she walked off for good this time.
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Kitty,
I don’t know where to start or how to stop my heart from breaking apart. I thought I loved you but now, I hate you! No. I don't. I'm an asshole for what I did to you. I would rather die than what I did and as much as I wanna try and hide my agony over it, I can't.
I try to pretend that I’m okay in front of Courtney. She's my boss but you never got to meet her, have you? Don't. She's cynical and the granddaughter of a mob boss. She forced me here. With this shrink. I hate that leer he gives me when he thinks I'm not looking. I think despises me because I'm a mutant.
The more I pretend though, the more it eats away at me. DID YOU REALLY LEAVE ME FOR MISSING YOUR FUCKING BIRTHDAY!?! You let me go so easily... Now I'm wondering if it was because of that Alex dude. I'll be honest. I started to try to change. To be a better and safer boyfriend for you... But now we're done and I STILL CAN'T EXCEPT IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTT!
Now I’m here, wishing I was all alone. Stupid psyche glaring at me! And asking myself what do I do now? Should I even try to see you? What the hell do I do if I DO see you again?! You'll saw a monster that night and I know I'll never be the same in your eyes again...
Well look, my hand hurts and if I was ambide-whatever that word is, I'd switch to my other hand and write some more. That jackass shrink is right. This is sort of relieving.
Every day that I wake up in this unfamiliar room, did I mention I was staying at the grandfather mob's mansion? I'm disappointed to see that nothing that night was just a horrific nightmare. The day still goes on and so does our sad story.
Now I’m here writing this stupid open letter to my broken heart. One day I hope you will be okay, and that all this will just be another nightmare to overcome.
Your ex, whose REALLY sorry,
Lance